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Video Sharing at DropShots.comWell it basically started when I was about ready to walk down and check the mail. I squated to tie one of my daycare kids shoes and I felt a little gush I knew I didnt wet myself because I just went to the bathroom. So I called Kevin at work and said Honey I think the baby is going to be born sotime tonight or tommorrow. He was like why and I told him. He said call the doc. So I did. They wanted me to come in and get checked and I was like well my hubby doesn't even get done with work till 4:30 ( it was like 2:30~3) They said no we want you here at about 4 ( I was not having any contractions at all) So I called Kev back at work and said they wanted to check me and to be there by 4. I said take your time I'm not having contractions and they all said first time baby's take 12 or more hours. I said I was going to go adn walk down and check the mail. He said "NO stay home" So I did. Well in the meantime the little boy's mom came to pick up her son ( which is also a cousin to my hubby) I told her what was what. She stayed with me till Kev got home. I had one contractions which was like is that a contraction She said yeah it probally was. Anyway I kept leaking like quarter size spots so I was chaingin underwear like crazy finally she said put a pad on DUHHHH why didn't I think of that Anyway Kev got there at about 3:30 took a quick shower loaded the car with the bags and me. I had another contraction on the way there. Well get there they call me in at about 5:15. Check me I am dialted to 4 and the doc says well we are keeping ya. They help me sit up and BAMMMMM my water breaks at about 5:30 p.m. They take me to L&D. Get me in a gown and settled in bed and BAMMM contractions start. Well the blood pressure thing was annoying me. Squeezing my arm at the same time a contraction was happening I hated it. Anyway at one point I decided I was done I couldn't do it anymore. So they offred drugs and I said yes. Which my goal was no drugs. Well the nurse could not stick me she kept poking me and poking me. Finally I looked at her and said very sturn FORGET IT . At this point I felt the urge to push she checked and said no your not ready. ( Now I at this point have no drugs still all natural birth) A few miniutes later I said I have to push and she said no you don't and I said YES I DO. Well she glared at me and checked and went running for the doc. Well he came in and said push. Well the nurse was trying to tell me when to push which was not working. Finally my mom said you push when you feel like it. I did that and BAMMMMM out come Parker Alex!!! Screaming, he had a bruised face. The doc than decides to clamp the umbilical cord ard roll it and pull on it ( Kev had already cut it) well when he pulled on it it snapped in half. He than clamped it again rolled it and pulled and told me to puch. The placenta was born. Next thing I know I am being jacked up to the doc's eye level and he is litterally shoving his hands in there mannnn that hurt worse than giving birth. Well he jams a needle in my arm ( remeber I had no pain meds the nurse could stick me and I said forget it) wheels me off to surgery. My uterus was inverted. So they had to fix it. Which they said Kev could be in there than they changed there mind all together and I watched as I fell asleep two doctors carrying my struggling husband out of the operating room. Anyway I had three pints of blood transfusion and Parker did not get his name for 5 hours. I did not REALLY hold him till the next afternoon. Kev thought I didnt want to hold him because he was a boy. Because anytime they tried to give him to me I refused. Reason why is because I was laying flat on my back when the one time I did take him started choking from being layed back flat. I was seeing double and I was passing in and out. Anyway Parker was 8# 7oz 20" and was born at 10:29 p.m. So my labor was short with him being my first. He scored 8&9 on APGARThat was 8 years ago yesterday. Here he is on his birthday. He isn't sad or angry in the picture the darn sun was in his eyes...lol..... so he say's.


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Hard to beleive 8 years has gone by. Parker is by far my miracle boy. From the beginning they thought he was going to be a tubal cause they could not find the little man. Than he was born a healthy baby boy. This birthday to me is special. I am soooo thankful he is alive to see his 8th birthday. He is a spunky little boy with lots of charm, whit and courage. He is also stubborn as all get out. Ya know he is ANGRY when that little vein on his neck sticks out. Happy Birthday Little Man!!!!


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Parker rode his bike for the first time since the accident. Talk about my heart pounding on the verge of tears and really trying hard not to be a over bearing mom. Sounds sooo stupid since the kid has rode without training wheels since the summer before kindergarten. One thing they told us he may not be able to ride his bike without training wheels. His balance still is off for his age. OMG it was scary to watch. I kept saying Parker don't go fast. Just slow take it easy blah blah blah he was like I know mom Well he did just fine and great. He was sooooo good about having his helment on at all times. We were not very good about enforcing the helment rule but now we are. We went one weekend and spent 80.00 on helments for all three of them and Parker we are actually going to buy another one to keep in the van. He needs a skatboarding helment verses a bike helment it is stronger and is made for high impact's.

My poor baby girl is running a fever today. She is 102.8 she is just laying around and grunting. I gave her some tylenol and hoping it kicks in soon.
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Sat it was 58 kids were out playing with just sweatshirts/ spring coats riding bikes all of our snow melted. Sunday a little cooler kids were wearing winter coats outside riding bikes and what snow was left melted and Kevin and my brother in law put there gutters up on there house. Than last night early am I guess today it started to rain than it turned to snow and a thunderstorm. It is still snowing hard. We went to no snow on our lawn..lol...guess I should say mud to this:

That yellow house is my sisters.

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Even gotten more than since I took that picture a hour ago. They cancelled school. Don't blame them cuase under all that snow is ice from the rain than getting cold enough to freeze it and turn to snow. When it was thunderstorming it was sleeting you could hear it hitting the windows. Sooo weird.

Video Sharing at DropShots.comI was at L&D Tuesday night (3/5/02) with contraction that were not painful at all just tightening and loosening and coming often. Well, they sent me home at 3 a.m. When I woke on Wed morning at 7 I was having contractions that were cramping. I ate two pieces of toast took a hot bath and went back to bed. Kev was going to go to work late when he got up to call at 9 I told him not to go to work they were coming more frequent and strong. So he called into work. At 11:15 I started timing them and they were strong were I had to breath through them. They were coming like 2 m, 3 m, 5 m, 6 m, 2 m a pattern like that. They were strong though. So I called L&D and they said to come in and get monitored again. So off we go again. They checked me and I was a loose 5 dilated. They monitored me for a while and had me walk the halls I did this from 12:00p.m till 2:30. They checked me again at 2:30 and said I was still a loose 5 almost 6 and contraction were about every 4 1/2m apart. Kevin had them down to the sec's of when it would hit. They called my doc and he said to admit me and we were going to have a baby that night. He would come after hours and break my water. So at 2:30 I was admitted and was expecting my doc about 6:30ish to break my water. So I sat from 2:30-7:20 with contractions every 4 1/2 min apart. As it got closer to 6 and 7 they were getting stronger, but very bearable so I walked the halls sat on the labor ball sat in the waiting room and gabbed with family. I was having back labor so it hurt worse in my back. Well, at 7:20 my doc was still not there and so the doc on call broke my water. And BAM contraction were intense and hard and painful. They were coming very close together and fast. I kept telling Kev I could not do this and he said yes you can you did it before and you can do it again. He breathed with me and talked me through them and kept encouraging me. He kept reminded me I wanted no drugs and when I said I couldn't do it. I never asked but he kept reminding me. He was AWESOME much more of a coach than with Parker he knew what to expect this time I think. Anyway I don't remember the order of events lots of intense contractions, and the urge to push came fast. She was born at 8:45 so about 1 hour and 15 of hard labor she was here in my arms. I am PROUD of myself no pain meds!! The hospital followed my birth plan to a T. They never asked me if I wanted drugs. They allowed all the time possible for the placenta to deliver on it's own. With my son I ended up with a prolapsed uterus and almost died. Kev cut the cord. I got to hold her for 2 hours before they bathed her and totally looked at her. They examined her on me. OK here is the scary stuff that happened. When I was pushing her heart rate dropped dramatically and they would not let me quit pushing. They kept yelling keep pushing, keep pushing. They never had me quit to clean out her mouth and nose. She must have not been getting enough oxygen at one point when her head came out her face was as black as her hair. You could not see her hair line from her face I guess. The doc took her out and was rubbing her very fast. She wasn't crying and I asked why she wasn't and at that moment she squawked. The doc said I think this kid is 9 pounds. When they did weigh her she was 9# 11oz!!! Her collar bone broke because she was so big. I think she got stuck. Broken collar bones are common in big babies. My doc said it is good thing they broke my water if I would have went a couple more days he thinks she would have been 10# and maybe some ounces. I asked what her sex was (we had no idea what we were having, never found out) and they said I don't know you look and flashed me I said "it's a girl." I loved it this was the most wonderful birth. I am so proud of myself going all natural and no complication's I got the birth I wanted with my son in her and than some. With my son I didn't hold or really see him for 6 hours. They had to rush me in for surgery and than when I did see him I was passing in and out from a blood transfusion. Anyway hope this is understandable it is hard to write this out. Here are her stats: McKinlea Elizabeth arrived on 3/6/02 at 8:45p.m. weighing in at 9# 11oz and 20.5 inches ( although a week later the county nurse measured her hat 22 my mom thought they said 21.5 at the hospital but they told me 20.5) Her apgars were 8&9!!That was 4 years ago today!! Look at my baby girl now today

Video Sharing at DropShots.comLast week I went and got her all registered for 4 year old Kindergarten. She is a such a big girl. She is full of energy. She is a very loving child. She is so mothering to Easton and Easton alot of times will go to her after I scold him to get comfort she will hold him and kiss him. She has seen things most kids her age has not. Like both her brothers in seriously condition and she held there hands and talked to them. Like she did in this clip well she did prior to this by herself and in the clip I asked her to say it again. **If you look please be aware it is a graphic picture of my son.**

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Her giggle makes you just laugh with her and her tears make you want to cry too. She will out of the blue say mommy lets pray. She has the biggest heart. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY SWEET BABY GIRL!!!!!!

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When do kids start to get that EWWW that is gross attitude. Easton who is 2yrs old bent down and kissed my toes after I smashed them very hard into the leg of the chair. After he kissed them he looked at me and said "all better"....lol.....

Yesterday we went to town and shopped cell phones. After some hard shopping we ended up gettting a cell phone plan with T~Mobile. I don't think it is all that bad. It is 69.99 a month for 1,000 shared min. We got 2 phones well 3 cause my sis and brother in law are sharing the plan with us. Unlimited mobile to mobile. No roaming, no long distance, unlimited nights ( after 9) and weekends. This was the best deal we could find cause we can add 2 more phones yet if we want.

We also went and got Parker his helment. We got a skateboarding one because they are the best and safest for Parker. With his TBI his melon will be protected. We also got the two little ones helments last night too. HOLY COW we spent 80.00 in helments. They were so funny after we got home they all walked around the house wearing there helments. Parkers is yellow vigor helment and Kinners is a pink pretty pony one and Easty's is primary colors with dogs on it or I thik it is dogs.

Well I am STARVING. We had Famous Daves on Sat night for supper and now I am craving beef brisket and ribs. OMG I am hungry. I do have some left over chicken from there I think I may have that for lunch. For Supper I am going to make meat loaf with backed potatoes.

Gutters ugh so expensive. 1400 to do gutters on this house. We can get it down to 1200 if we don't do the north side of the garage. Now that is seamless gutters which is what Kevin wants to do. I on the other hand want to just put on gutters this year that are inexpensive and in 5 years replace them with seamless. I could just cry. We do not have that kind of money and they need to be put on because our roof pitch is soo steep and the deck gets so nasty icy when it gets cold. Plus the basement is getting water in it do to the fact that the back needs more dirt which don't ask were that is comming from. Gutters will help alot. Thanks to my mom we lost our savings so we had to use other money to pay the utilities this year when we could of used that to pay for gutters and a deck. Now I have to wonder were the money will come from for gutters and we can forget the deck this year. Maybe the estimate we have comming on Monday will be cheaper. Praying it will.

Parker had parent teacher conferences last week. He is doing well. He is behind on reading and math but we knew that but he is progressing. His teacher told Mona nad than also told me that she has taught many years and has never had a child as poliet as Parker. She said please and thankyou comes out of his mouth so much in one day it is so refresshing. His LD teacher also told us that when she is having a bad day her day gets better the minute Parker walks into her room cause he always has a smile on his face. Even when he had that big halo on he would come in smiling. She said he has been through so much for someone his age and he has a smile all the time. It just makes her bad days better. She shared with us that they were working on words and he got the word worried. They had to use it in a sent and his sent was I was worried when they took my halo off. He never told us he was never acted like he was and I evne asked him and he said he wasnt and he was doing good. What a strong boy I have. I can't help but stare at him and just melt. His other word was happy and his sent was I am happy when I get to go to Gillette's ( his hospital) His aid also said that she calls him sparkles cause everytime he talks his eye's sparkle. She also said for someone who has gone and going through what he did and does he doesn't feel sorry for himself and just is happy as can be. I thought I would share his parent teacher conference with you. I can't sit and brag about how he excels in class cause he doesn't he is behind but I can brag about how well he does socially and emotionally and how he is only 7 years old and he has touched so many people and how so many adults have learned a little from my little man. I am so proud of him.

Ever have those day's were you feel lonely and nothing to do when in all reality there is a ton to do. Like laundry, dishes, bathrooms to clean, floors to vacuum and floors to mop. Today is one of those day's for me. My phone is not ringing off the hook because last Friday I paid all of our past do bills. Funny thing is it was only about 3,200 that was haunting us. Of course that isn't our house payment or our car payment those were bills that have been past due since before McKinlea. Only past due bills we have now are medical. It is great feeling but yet sad. Sad because that was a lot of money that we forked out alot was do to late and over the limit fee's. Sad because we could of used that money to do a deck, or go on vacation. Oh well what is another year. Next year we will hopfully be able to build a deck and go on vacation, but in a weird way it is so quiet here. Weird how you get used to somthing and than when it is gone good or bad it feels weird. I am so happy to have those bill's paid.

As of Feb 14th if all goes like it should Kevin and I will truly be home owners!!!! We will no longer be in our land contract anymore and this house will soley be ours!!!!!

Ok so yesterday I shared house pictures of my house. Kev and I are in a land contract and hopefully in a month this house will be sole ours. Kevin and I have cc debt that we should of never did and we have a car payment and now this house payment which is OUTRAGES. We knew things were going to be extra tight and we planned for that last year at tax time I put money in our saving to pay for utility bills. When Parker got in his accident we used our savings to make the first house payment cause we moved in 2 weeks to the day before his accident. Plus Kevin was driving from Eau Claire to St. Paul almost 2 hours back and forth to work. I was not going to make him stay home he felt he needed to come to the hospital everyday to be with his son who can deny that. Anyway it was all around the time of the hurricane and gas here was 3.20 a gallon. Well we have a 1992 Astro van and I bet you can imagine what we went through in gas. Plus I was eating 1 meal a day at the hospital. Which hospital food at least at Gillette children's was not cheap. Plus I paid some bills out of that savings but it is gone our utility money is gone. The house payment takes all of kevs checks for the month. He only makes 13.60 a hour. He made 31,249.52 for the year this last year. So anyway I posted pictures and at one of my sites this lady post this:


Please don't take this the wrong way but for someone that complains about money all the time-you'd never know you struggle w/ it. The place is amazing. Nicer than what we have and (she put her hubbies name here I took it out to be fair to her) makes over $500k a year.
I'm jealous. Again, please don't take it the wrong way...I'm totally envious and I LOVE the photos on the wall in b&w! Kids rooms..All of it is amazing. :)

I am sorry but I am hurt angry by that. Maybe I shouldn't take it that way but I am. Kev works hard to provide for this family. Honestly I don't complain all the time. This comes from a girl who spends 100.00 a pop on face cream like 2oz. She is a girl that went and spent 2,000 on what she calls a push present cause she just had a baby 4 months ago so she bought herself a ring. I am sorry I had 3 kids all natural no drugs what so ever and my kids were 8#7oz, 9#11oz and 9#3oz and I got roses when my daughter was born from the hubby but I never got a frickin push present. Plus I only have 3 pair of jeans and 11 shirst. Shoot I have two bras that is it and I have had them since McKinlea was 8 months old and she is going to be 4 soon. Lets talk about underwear yeah my oldest will soon be 8 and I still am wearing underwear from when I was pregnant from him. My tennis are going on 3 years old. I have not had a hair cut in over a year. I bye 2.00 hair color to try to make me feel a little better. I don't wear makeup during most of the week to save on it and CRAP perfume I have a bottle of unbound that is over a year old now cause I SAVE it for church and special things my in laws bought me that. Most of my furniture is hand me downs from my dad and the decorations I have I have had for 11 years. My pottery in my kitchen I had home and garden party's to EARN that stuff for free by the sales at my party plus my sis sold it for awhile and she would get it at her cost for me so I get earn more. I shope thrift stores, auctions and thrift sales. My kids wear generic diapers. My daughter wears boy clothes from my son and hand me downs from my twin nieces. We buy generic food. Sometimes when we don't have enough food the kids eat eggs and cereal cause I get WIC. GRRRRRR I am SO angry I cried myself to sleep last night cause of it. Kevin works 2 nights a week plus his day job. YES I can go to work but what Kev brings home working two nights a week is more than me working 5 nights a week. Plus she has never had to go through what I have. COME ON I almost lost both my sons. How many parents have had to live at a hospital for a month watching there child on life support not knowing if they are going to make it. Looking at your child with tubes and machines hanging out of every inch of there body. Watching there child swell up and not look like them. Seeing the stiches the bruises knowing they are hurting and you can't do anything about it. Being so scared that you get sick to your stomach and almost passout. Feeling alone sitting by your child's bed wishing it was you instead. How about now you don't even want to send them to school or let them stay at a friends house. Watching your child look out the window at the kids sledding and they can't go. Listen to them say I am better now mama and crying and being angry at you. AGHHHHHHHH I better stop cause I am now crying again. All I can say why is it people like that are so cruel. I would NEVER do that no matter how much money I had. God provides you with what you need and God has been good to us. He has spared my son's lives. This house was suppose to be a new start to life a new begging to get our finaces on track. I was so excited to show my house and than I got shot down now I wish I would of never showed them. One day I will have fun happy post one day.

I really don't know how to do these blog's. My words seem so sad and not interesting to anybody. I read other blogs that are so witty and fun and those people seem so happy. So today I am here to pray. Lord you know what is on my heart you know I am scared to pray outloud I don't know how to pray. I pray you give me the strength this year to work on that and become closer to you. I am also here praying for the house I just got off the phone to have this house put in our name solely and this we really need. You know we need this. I am so scared that if we don't get this we will be so far in muck of finacially isuues. I really feel that this will help us get on track. Getting our taxes back will help us get our finacial issues together. My plan is to get those cc paid off either with taxes or with Kevin's bus co. check. I am asking you to pls work your hands in this pls let this happen. I also pray that you work your hands on me this year to be a happier person not so sad and not so lonely. I ask for your help to make me not so short with the kids. In your name I pray.